I cannot shake this dream...

[Na’rìngä ’Evenge]

A few nights ago I dreamed i was Na'vi, and ever since the dream has been with me for every waking moment. I've written it down and feel that maybe, if anyone would care to hear it, i would post it here. And maybe if i do this, it would help my mind settle some... but i don't know if anyone would even care...

Irayo for your support...I will warn you it's probably pretty stupid... But here goes...

          He was a skyperson, a dreamwalker, uniltìrantokx, I was Na'vi, one of the people. He was not welcome among our people; he was not one of us truly. But at that time I did not feel welcome by my people either.
          My parents were dead, they had not survived the terrible attack by toruk...he was their last shadow. I had no close family in the clan. Though called tsmuke, they did not do more than the minimum for me, the people of my clan felt pity for me, they did not allow me to starve. But I was nì'awtu, alone. My hammock sat alone, near the base of our hometree. For at some point my line had been not a part of theirs, and so I was alone.
          One night I slept and dreamed. In my dream I felt myself fly high into the clouds, me only no ikran. And as I flew I saw many metal ships coming ever closer to our hometree, but I did not fear them. Instead I flew towards them and, in the way of dreams, was suddenly inside the closest ship. I saw the skypeople with their guns, but I also saw the dreamwalkers. I did not know why they were together. I did not understand.
          Then I left the ship as it passed over my hometree and I flew downward. I saw the leader of our people whispering to our warriors. I do not know what he said to them, but I just knew it had something to do with me, so I listened. He said he had had a vision, that Eywa had told him one of his people, a female, would lead the people along with her mate and that the mate would be a skyperson.
          He had only heard rumor of skypeople and did not yet know of their dreamwalkers. We lived far from the Omatikaya and the place called "hell's gate" and so we did not know much of the skypeople. Few of the traveling Na'vi had told us of their schools where Na'vi could learn the tongue of the skypeople, but our leader was very strict on forbidding any of us to travel there to learn it.
          I, however, had snuck away and talked with the dreamwalkers and had learned a few of their words. But a few nights only had passed before my parents met toruk and they were gone. I had been grieving for a long time and no longer thought of the skypeople or their school. But in my dream I heard our leader's words and knew I would be the one to mate with the dreamwalker.
         And so after learning what I could in my dream I floated down into my own body. When I awoke the next day I packed a carrying bag of all of my things and said no goodbyes. I only began walking.
         After some time I reached the skypeople's school. It was run down and only a few Na'vi were there. I asked a young boy what had happened to the many that had been there months before. He told me that the aykaryu, the teachers, had fought and one had left. The other had not been feeling well and so many had gone. I thanked him and went to the small building that was the school. I went inside and found no one inside. I looked for the karyu that was left. She was nowhere to be found. I walked outside and all who had been there were running away.
         I stopped another young one. He could not say anything, he only pointed to the sky.
         I turned around and saw one of the skypeople's big metal ikran headed right for where I was standing.
         In a moment I felt anger that I had been do distracted that I had not heard the loud noise and anger that the skypeople would come this deep into the forest, so near to my hometree.
         I stumbled backwards, almost falling to the ground, but my balance kept me on my feet and I ran for the trees. I climbed high up, so I could see what was happening below me. From where I was I saw no other Na'vi, they had all run away. In that moment I was ashamed for my people...to flee so. But I stayed. I was curious...I have always been too curious...
         Out of the metal ikran came pxey tawtute, three skypeople. I had only seen a few before (besides those from my dream), but now I was much closer to them. They called and screeched to each other...I could not understand most of their loud words.
         I stared at the skypeople, they were so small, yet they looked very mean. Like a mother palulukan when you get too near to her cubs.... But they were not the only ones to come from the metal ikran.
         After the three skypeople came a dreamwalker. Though he looked very much Na'vi his eyes gave him away, they were too small. He was also wearing tawtute coverings; the dark grey of the fabric covered him. I thought to myself, he must be hot as the day was humid and warm already, and the coverings went all the way down his arms and legs.
         He looked around, taking in everything around him as best he could. He was not Na'vi, he could not see. But he tried to see simply what was around him.  Even then he failed because he did not seem to notice me watching him.
         After he looked around he turned back to the metal ikran and grabbed a large box and carried it into the school. He spoke to the skypeople in their language and then the skypeople flew away in their metal ikran.
         I watched him move into the school building. When I thought he was settled inside, I jumped down. I was torn between investigating more or just leaving.  Then I remembered I had nowhere to go.
         I crept to the door and just as I was about to call out a greeting the dreamwalker ran out of the school. He held one of the skypeople's metal 'gun's. I backed away and crouched on the ground, my knife in hand, bearing my teeth. He then saw that it was not his enemy at his door.
In half broken Na'vi he tried to apologize, then he switched to the skypeople's tongue.
         "Look...I'm sorry....you probably don't understand...Um..." He looked very confused and frustrated. I took pity on him, though I knew I should not trust him.
         I stood up and sheathed my knife.
         "No..I ...understand some...not all...some" I said to him in the best tawtute I could manage.
         He looked at me with his too small eyes. I looked at him and the 'gun' still in his hand.
         He spouted more words in the skypeople's tongue and went inside the school to get rid of it. Again he apologized in half broken Na'vi.
         Then we stood alone in the small clearing next to the skypeople's school. As I saw him then I did not want to believe the things that had been said about the dreamwalkers.  Despite his odd hands and eyes, his form was pleasing, more pleasing then any member of the clan I had left. I do not know what the dreamwalker thought of me then.
         The memories of what came next blurred together. Time passed quickly for us. He had been sent by the skypeople to be the new teacher, the other one had disappeared. I taught him how to be a warrior, how to fight as a Na'vi, I taught him how to speak our language as he taught me to speak his. I also taught him how to dress like Na'vi and he found them more comfortable then the tawtute 'uniform' he had worn at our first meeting.
         Over this time I began to feel we were truly meant to be mated, that Eywa had brought us together.
         One night after he had finished teaching the few remaining students that came to the school, he took me away to the small part of the forest that had become our secret part of the forest. It was night and the forest glowed. Our skin glowed as well, our own flecks of light showing in the lit darkness. He took me to our spot; we rested on the soft grasses there and spoke to each other. Both of us knew our people would not understand what we had between us. The skypeople knew nothing of me, his reports only said he had students and that they were learning the skypeople's tongue and some of their ways. I could sometimes see the pain in his heart when he returned from the skypeople and their world. He told me it was nothing, but I knew the pain he had to bear keeping the other skypeople from knowing about me.
         I had not returned to my clan since leaving, and I had seen no sign of a search party looking for me. I had not been missed.
         As we lay on the glowing grass he asked me if I had ever thought about taking a mate. I told him I'd never had the opportunity to. He asked me if I would take him as my mate. I did not hesitate to tell him I would have him.
         We were mated then, that night and forever. Eywa had known what we had not.
         The next morning our world changed.
         We had never thought about what we would do for the long term, but when two of the 'scorpions' landed at the school we were forced to make our choices.
         Another dreamwalker stepped out along with many armed skypeople. The woman dreamwalker spoke Na'vi well and translated to me what the largest armed skyperson was saying. I tried to get my mate to translate instead. His words did not treat me as a child as hers did. But he was yelling at the tall skyperson. I could now understand much of the argument without the dreamwalker's translation. They knew about us...they wanted us separated.
         My mate was taken away from me. He was held in the school. I was forced out into the forest.
Some time passed.  I do not know how long.
         My mate convinced the skypeople we could help them with a problem they were having. We were both warriors now. And because we worked better together he convinced them to let us solve the problem together. They did not know about our mating something both of us thanked Eywa for concealing from thier eyes.
         We were told there was a creature. It was much larger then toruk. It attacked the skypeople's ships killing many. They believed it was not a creature of Eywa; that they had created it in a laboratory and it had escaped.
         We were dropped on a cliff and had to wait for the creature so we could fight it. It was the first time we had been together since the skypeople had come between us and we kissed and made sure each of us knew the way we felt about the other.
         Then the creature attacked. It was toruk, but not. It was black in color and under the shelter of its wings could have hidden many toruk. It was much larger then we had expected and although my mate had the weapons of the skypeople, we knew we needed a better plan then the one we had originally made.
         My mate looked at me and asked me if I trusted him: I did. And when the creature next attacked and opened its jaws up wide to swallow us we allowed it to.
         Inside the creature he cracked open portable glowing tubes and we saw the inside of the creature. There were objects of all kinds stuck in the lining of the creature's stomach and teeth. We planted explosives to destroy the creature, but had to worry about getting out ourselves.
         I stabbed the creatures throat with my spear and it banked violently. We were both supposed to jump as it screeched in pain, but as my mate jumped he got caught on a wire and I turned back for him. The creature screamed and banked again and I fell out and fell into the forest. I thought I'd never see him again.
         What felt like months later, I was again with my parent's clan.
         The time of the Toruk Makto Jakesully had come and gone. The clans had been called together and had disbanded yet again. After the great battle I had asked all I could if they had seen my mate. But many had been lost and so no one had answers for me.
         More time passed.
         Now there were no more skypeople's ships in the skies, no more of the violent skypeople patrolling "their land". It was a time of coming peace after a time of great conflict. And I was heavily with child.
         The people of my clan looked sideways at me not understanding where my mate was. Many took pity thinking he had been lost in the battle. But rumors spread that he was a dreamwalker. That I had done something which was still forbidden-despite Neytiri and Jakesully's relationship.
         Only nights before I knew I was to give birth, a skyperson's 'scorpion' hovered over hometree.
         Many were frightened thinking the skypeople had returned...but again I watched in curiosity. It hovered for a few moments and a door on its side opened.
         A dreamwalker jumped free of the 'scorpion' and landed, niNa'vi, onto the ground near to me. I had cowered for a moment to protect my stomach and child.
         When I looked up I saw my mate.
         He looked astonished to see me as well -especially in the current state I was in.
         I jumped into his arms and we were together again. He told me of the ceremony the Omatikaya had held to make him no longer dreamwalker, but truly na'vi. And that he had fought next to Jakesully and that he would never leave me again.
         I kissed him again and again not able to speak for my joy.
         Days later he helped bring our child into our world.
         Months later he proved himself worthy of our leader's deepest trust and some years later he became leader to the clan and I the speaker for Eywa who had given me so much.

This was my life as a Na'vi.
It was whole and good.
And when I woke all I could think was "Everything is backwards now, like out there is the true world, and in here is the dream."
...no not a dream, a nightmare.
One from which I cannot wake.

He was a dreamwalker and I was Na'vi...and we loved and fought together...made a life together...and were one with each other and with Eywa...

I saw myself through his eyes...
I breathed new life, flying high...
I prayed in my heart that this dream would never end...

[Txur’Itan]

Give it a go.

[Nìftxavang Sreu]

Si ke aytopu tsmuke!! We would all love to hear it. I've had similar experiences, and talking to members here has helped my a lot.
Eywa lu hu nga

[Txur’Itan]

Looks like you had a good dream. =)

To bad about the monster. =(

I have a creature in my story that has been lurking about my imagination since I wrote the first chapter, but I have not entirely decided what to do with it yet. 

Thanks for Sharing.